I don’t mean physically. There are times you feel alone, even when in the midst of a crowd. Behind the smiles, the waves and hellos and the laughters, there’s weariness inside. I don’t want to turn out to be someone who entertains negative thoughts. I’m not pessimistic either. But there are just times when confusion, frustration, tiredness and weariness, all fall out at once on you, pushing you deeply to the ground. I feel so low. I… I think too much. It’s all about me. Bla bla bla. Why, O Lord? 

Replace my heart with one that’s peaceful, full of joy and simply grateful. Why is my heart heavy? Why am I full of questions? I’m young. In experience, in life, in everything. I don’t know alot but one thing I know, I’m tired of thinking. What good does it do?

My heaviest burden is me. I’m full of me. I’m tired of me. Please take me out of myself and let Your Spirit grow in me. Let all my thoughts be those that glorify You. Thoughts of You and Your goodness and.. everything about You. These thoughts give me strength to face the day. These thoughts give me everything I need.

But, Lord. I’ve failed You. Many times. Now I’m downcast again. Why, o my soul?

Lord I have failed You
I have been weak
I wanna praise You
To be humble and meek

I know You are freedom
I know You are truth
Break these chains of guilt
And make me brand new

Show me Your mercy
Show me Your grace
Take me to where You are
I wanna see Your face

So I will praise You
Lord I will sing
Your Name be glorified
Above all kings

I want to praise You
I want to sing to You
Let the whole world see
There’s no one like You

Lord, I’m sick. You’re my medicine. Cure me. <3

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